It's rare that I suicide. I admit to doing so on this occasion.
However, let's not get too far above ourselves shall we. It may have slipped -your- mind that Cabe was assisting you during this so called fight (I dispute the term in these circumstances), but it did not slip mine.
Suicide was simply to avoid losing any equipment to your irritating magnetism (50 tinderboxes later!) and whatever tricks Cabe was about to pull out of his hat.
PS: All the points you make about your fighter stature are absolutely correct and I'm delighted to see you've come to accept them as the truth the rest of Avalon knows them to be. You've never fought a challenge, you've never gone out and taken the fight to the enemy, and if you did change your approach you could probably actually be pretty good.
Written by my hand on the 9th of Midsummer, in the year 1292.