After reading yet another one of your posts, I have decided what is your problem. You need more fiber. You are bound up inside and just need to relax and let the waste out.
Maybe some delicious plums would help. You can scrump them in the forest, they are free so you don't have to knock anyone out and torture them for them. Just shimmy up a plum tree tree and scrump yourself some relief from your Heavy Burdens.
Climbing trees is very good exercise too. Posturing isn't really good for your heart and causes your bile to rise to unhealthy levels. Get out there and exercise by climbing trees and picking fruit, rather than killing people and robbing them blind.
Anyway, I don't expect any change in your thinking until your clear out all the nastiness inside. Eating plums would be a good first step!
Written by my hand on the 15th of Hindyear, in the year 1251.