First up, it should be noted that you weren't raped,you were robbed. Important difference
Secondly, the mage is a fighting profession. This is bourne out by your statement that most of your skills were rendered inoperable by pacifism. Conclusion? your skills are designed for fighting.
If you can't handle this,then join a guild that will better accomodate your sweet and oh so gentle nature.
Written by my hand on the 24th of Paglost, in the year 1038.