You choose to use the crystal heart in the knowledge of the situations it can put you in, you have on my occasions died repeatedly because of it.
The fact that you keep using it shows your stubbornness and determination, to such an extent that some would deem it highly foolish.
Your use of the heart makes you very difficult to truly defeat in battle, but it offers you no way out. Your deaths are not followed by trips to the pool or divine protection.
But also winning a challenge against you becomes very difficult.
You know all this, you accept the risks, it is the price of your near-immmortality.
Do not complain when that price is exacted from you.
Written by my hand on the 24th of Agamnion, in the year 1025.