C'est la vie. I think you will find that many people on here have been through the same thing. The soul of the person behind the character are normally vastly different.
Prime example is Shaitan. Storming character, caused more deaths than and eastern european coup. Enjoyed raping and pillaging, stealing and stripping.
But in real life, he was a nice guy.
You might not catch my point but what the hell.
Written by my hand on the 2nd of Agamnion, in the year 987.